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Former Fashion Designer & Merchandiser, loves to read S&M erotica, Guitar Hero addict & lounge music aficionado. To know me is to love me (or hate) me...[more]

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Entries from April 1, 2008 - May 1, 2008

Thursday
17Apr

the last time

Who was the last singer or band you seen in concert?

Jimmy Buffet and I am *not* a Parrot Head, I just happen to enjoy the festive party that accompanies his concerts. He will be coming to San Diego this year and yes I plan on attending.

When is the last time you had a conversation with a cat or dog? 

Just the other day, my dog Rooka is just the cutest little thing and I wanted to see if he was ok and if he wanted to play ball.

When is the last time you walked into a room and thought what did I come in here for?

This morning when I walked into my office...I usually ask that question daily.

When is the last time you considered throwing a temper tantrum in a public place?

Ugh remember when I was snubbed?

When is the last time you tried to gain five extra  pounds?

Try...humm this just happens. However the "pounds" and I are constantly at odds. I want it off, they want to say on...round and round we go.

When is the last time that you increased your candle budget?

Not until Micheleasked this awesome question! Do you have any idea how long it's been since I went to Yankee?

When is the  last time you thought that a blog friend had a habit of asking very odd questions?   

There is one person who asked a odd question I have yet to answer...maybe we have the same blog friend.


Wednesday
09Apr

the flow

As most of you know I am an avid reader of the Daily Om, I always get weirded out when they start talking about "universal flows" and so on, but this one made sense.

Learning to step into it can help you feel a connection to a force that is greater than you and is always there to support you. The decision to go with the flow takes courage because you are surrendering the belief that you need to do everything by yourself. Riding the flow of the universe can be effortless, exhilarating, and unlike anything you ever expected. When you are receptive to being in it, you open yourself to possibilities that exist beyond the grasp of your control.

I think more now than lately I've accepted this. I have not really shared everything with my father because of the fact I think he's a know-it-all (ha,ha) you know sort of like me. So often we clash because when we're debating it's like a who's smarter war. As my mother sits on the sideline like...what? So I opened the door to let my father aware of the things going on in my life and I know it has helped in our communication. Maybe that's what I needed to get us back on the right track. My family will always be supportive of me and my son and that I will always be appreciative of. I honestly don't thank my parents enough for everything they have helped me with. Their support is always unwavering and they have been excellent to my son and I with so many things. So I've decided to relinquish control to the universe and just let things happen and deal as they come.


Tuesday
08Apr

beautiful day

I am set to have a wonderful day. I love it when people do their best to ruin it with lies and accusations. Unfortunately am reduced to dealing with people who I know are liars, it's in their sheer nature to never be truthful. They sit in their little sewing circle and spew about how they can bring me down. Well you won't and I laugh and spit on your attempts. For years this person has tried and I realized one thing, God will never give me more than I can handle, so than means I can handle you with grace and maturity...all the while knowing your dirty attempts and shallow and vainful. So I take comfort in this scripture.

"God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it" (1 Corinthians 10:13).

I've endured for years and my just reward must be pretty fierce. Now I will continue my NIN musical intervention...thank you Trent for showing me just how shallow people can be, you made me feel better already =)


Friday
04Apr

how I work

I always am interested in looking at various horoscopes about me, I found one which describes me pretty accurately, this was the general overview:

A Taurus born on April 21 has an interesting, spirited personality that attracts admirers in both their personal and professional lives. They are also opinionated and at times have a problem accepting other points of view. Although their buoyant nature generally keeps them from seeming dogmatic or pushy, it is important that they cultivate tolerance.

It's true I'm deathly opinionated and have no problem saying so, because I'm intellectual n' stuff. I can't accept all points of view...especially ones that make no sense. I must say I am not very tolerant of others, especially when people are saying dumb things. And now we move on to the "Friends & Lovers" section:

Outgoing, old-fashioned, and utterly charming, April 21 people are likely to have a large circle of pals from a wide social group. In love they are incredibly sentimental and romantic.

I am not very outgoing unless it involves food. I could say I'm old-fashioned, that would explain my love for Bettie Page and the 50's. Yes I do like to have a large circle of pals, when I was single it was fierce I never traveled without my entourage. I used to be sentimental, you know like making handmade cards and making gifts...I think those mean more and show the person that you care enough to take the time to make something for them. Yes I'm a scrap booker {shhhh...}. Next we move forward to "Children & Family":

April 21 individuals feel enormous pressure and responsibility to fulfill their familial obligations. When it comes to raising their own children, they have a tendency to be liberal, even indulgent parents.

Actually I don't feel any pressure...I feel currently everyone is trying to marry me off, but not so. If I hear anything about marriage from my family I think I'm going to loose my lunch (and I haven't had it yet). I'm not against it, I just feel a lot of things need to be addressed for both people. Oh yes I'm one hell of a liberal parent, my son gets anything he wants and I think being a liberal parent you'll raise a respectable child. I don't take to him like he's a child I talk to him like a young man and I give him the same respect...hence the reason he's so smart. Thanks to me and my over involvement in his education. Indulgent...I'm a Taurus would anyone expect less? So here's my "Health":

As vital individuals, April 21 people often take their good health for granted. They enjoy doing things to excess, which can include overeating and burning the candle at both ends. A low-fat diet is recommended.

Vital that's me! I do everything in excess, remember you only live once. Low fat diet? Um how about lots sushi and exercising instead? On to my "Career & Finances":

April 21 people have great success as bankers, brokers, investment counselors, and financial planners. However, they do far better handling other people's money than they do their own.

Well that explains why I'm an Accountant...so let's see about "Dreams & Goals":

April 21 individuals are painstaking in their methods of building dreams and achieving goals. Although they have a gift for organization, they have also mastered the art of flexibility.

I agree, this is why my business is so important to me. I toil and labor over every single detail and outcome because when I do become successful I want to do it the right way one time. Flexibility and organization I have that covered...I know where things are and how to master the art of getting multiple things done. Here's a few more tidbits that I thought were very true:

Embrace the best of everything, aging gracefully and letting go. Avoid fear of change, ignoring lessons and going for broke.

I guess I can say I was impressed, find out yours.


Wednesday
02Apr

birthday wishlist

Since there are approximately 19 days until my birthday I was asked by R what I wanted. I really don't want anything extravagant really. However I figured I better classify my top five that I really want first from my Amazon Wishlist.

  1. more pLUSH, since I already have pLUSH it makes since to have the other one too.

  2. Hotel Tara: The Intimate Side of Buddha Lounge, well having more lounge music is utterly important. Plus I've heard fantastic reviews on this one outside of Amazon.

  3. Courtesan, I love books and lately they have been helping me write my novella and I have a little obsession with the word itself.

  4. Professional Double Ended Roll Brush Set, this is a definite want. I've been looking for brushes and this was the most adorable thing I've seen. Not to mention it matches my purse.

  5. Erotic Lounge, Vol. 4 [IMPORT], more damn lounge music...but this one is REALLY good.

Everything else on the list will come in time...these are just things I want now.

Better yet....forget all that other stuff and I will settle for these, since the ones I need to get fixed are at R's house on the floor. They've been needing to be fixed for a while and my Jessica Simpson's are loosing their flair, so I need new ones anyway. In the end my life usually rests on a great pair of shoes.