I sort of feel bad because I have not updated in quite a while but for me I needed to get from behind the computer for a few days and spend time with my son and R. Now that I am back I can update you to everything that has gone on over the last week. I did not mention on my blog that I was leaving out of town because I am very cautious about what I write here and I don't give to much personal information about myself and family. I took a trip with R and my son to San Jose to spend the holidays with his parents. It was nice to be in a different location and see different things, along with seeing where R grew up. He took me to quite a few places the Winchester House, the Mystery Spot, around San Jose, the pier and a few other places. It was nice to be without the pressure of my family and being able to sit back and enjoy someone else doing all of the work. We all had a great time and a great Christmas. On Christmas Eve and morning S opened a plethora of gifts from R's family and me, needless to say he was opening gifts up until the 27th! I however received one of the best gifts ever, a gorgeous expensive tea set from Tevana from R and I gave him a ring one I intended to give him for his birthday but was to scared to do then. All and all I had a great time with him and I think we needed something like this for our relationship in general.

I've been feeling a little down fellow bloggers, things happen that kind of put you in a mood...so what do you do when it happens? I'm an emotional person and it just seems the universe is throwing me the worst curve of my life. I know people tell me the holidays are just a depressing time yadda, yadda, yadda but seriously I dunno. I've been writing down my most personal thoughts on paper (OMG paper!) yes I know wasting trees again, when I have the all powerful internet. However there are thoughts I don't want anyone to ever know and therefore I write and then basically run them through the shredder, sometimes it's a just about getting something in writing that just makes the weight go away and the reason I do it is to keep people from being critical about me. Were all human and I think the last thing we want is for people to be critical of our thoughts, desires and dreams. Speaking of dreams I've had some very odd ones lately. Last night I dreamed I had this ring that I traveled around with on a dragon (like Falkor the one in the Neverending Story) and I had this quest to let these people I had to meet touch the ring to have a life changing experience. Then one person I met had said I needed to have a lifechanging experience to fully understand the power of the ring...let me tell you, very odd, profound and kind of fun.

The All About Me Test {Christmas Edition}:

What does Christmas smell like?

Usually pine and egg nog

Do you leave cookies out for Santa?

Sure I hear he likes sugar cookies and I have a really kick-ass recipe.

What Christmas song would you prefer to never hear again?

Grandma got run over by a reindeer....ugh I hate it, seriously.

What does  your tree topper look like?

Usually a Santa Claus...next year its going to be a massive pink star.

Do you plan a special breakfast for Christmas  morning?

No, but I do drink oodles of coffee and that should count.

Is a Bûche de Noël a great holiday dessert, or the greatest holiday dessert?

Ummm, ummm, ummm.

Do you festoon your Christmas packages with ribbons and bows and glittery furbelows, are they plain, or are they (shudder) in gift bas?

I used to when I was single and had friends over for Christmas, we'd have wrapping parties and have wine and sing Christmas songs....I have not been in the overly festive mood like I used to back then. There was a day when I adored Christmas.

On occasion I tell you a few things about me, compliments of The All About Me Test:

Please share your secret: how are you able to justify a new pair of shoes every month?

Well I don't...if I want new shoes I just buy them, thankfully I have no one to justify my purchases through.

Do you consider yourself a hopeless romantic or romantically hopeless?

Seriously I would say romantically hopeless, I'm a parent and I lost hope 5 years ago (not because of my son he's the best), I  just have always thought people who are already parents most single people stayed away from.

What actor or actress would you be certain to include on your I would rather not see any movie they are  in list?

Tom Cruise...with the exception of Top Gun.

Have you mastered the art of knowing how to get the cellophane off of CD covers?

Ugh..no that's why I just download them off iTunes.

Naughty or nice?

Is bitchy and option? If not then Naughty, I'm definitely not Nice.

What colour have you, or will you, decorate your Christmas tree  this year?

I would have loved to do it pink, but the tree is at R's house and I know that's probably would not fly.

I know Michele's answer, but what kind of footwear are you?

I'm a pair of Charles David Stiletto Boots on most days and sometimes a pair of colorful Sketchers.