I was searching for information on how long credit inquiries stay on your credit report (because I'm a obsessive when it comes to my credit) when I noticed a link to a story on Slate from the article I found on the Washington Post (confusing situation, I know...just follow me) asking the question "Do coffee shops discriminate?" Needless to say I was drawn in being the lover of frou frou coffee drinks. The Slate article basically says women wait 20 seconds longer than men to get their coffee. I'm sorry is 20 seconds considered discrimination? If a man is in front of me and he orders a Grande Sumatra and I get a Tall non-fat vanilla latte (of course it's Starbucks) should I seriously expect to get my coffee first? Well of course not, see because my milk needs to be steamed and it's non-fat so that constitutes a different steel container. As for the man in front of me...his just comes out of a steel vat which is brewed constantly ALL DAY.

My first reaction on the article was"OMG discrimination at a coffee shop!!", I nearly ran for the hills in disbelief. Then I actually read the article and I frankly think if you have that much time on your hands to analyse a 20 second wait for coffee then you need an actual job...like mine.

Three years ago today he looked me in the eyes and instantly I was his...

I love you more every day, because no matter what we go through you've been by me every single step of the way. There is no one way I can say thank you or tell you how much I love you, just know that I do. Happy Anniversary Gunny =)

On Thursday night we celebrated the Marine Corps birthday at Pala Casino. However the actual birthday is today, November 10th. For the last few years I have been privileged to be able to attend and this year was no exception. I worked a 10 hour day at work and drove 2 hours to  the ball, it was a hellish 2 hours and I can tell you I literally lost my mind a few times in deathly slothful traffic hoping I'd make it there before 6pm, well I made it at 5:50pm. A few things went wrong I was tired exhausted from working and driving and in all honesty I wanted to fall asleep. In an odd way I got my wish. When I get up to our room, because R could not come down to get me because he was in his uniform (I guess that was the reason), anyhow I get to the room and go take a shower and get dressed...and my dress doesn't fit. I've worn it before but yeah well it doesn't fit. Being the best guy ever R came into the bathroom, as I was reluctant to let him in and asked me was I ok I of course responded "of course not" and explained why. R and his best friend Rob went down to the ceremony and I drunk texted him during the whole thing. That was 3 vodka and cranberry's later....,R eventually came back two hours later and we ordered a pizza from room service hung out for a while and then got dressed and went downstairs to find Rob and hang out. We happened to be very noticeable in jeans but it was fine by then everyone was drinking anyway. We ended up at the casino bar down by the ballroom and my count for the night ended there at a respectable total of 9 vodka and cranberry's. We talked to a lot of different people and had dinner with a few others and finally wrapped up our evening or day by going to bed at about 6am Friday morning.

Work hard, play hard...

Appetizer
Which snack do you like to get when you go to the movies?

Well let's see...the last time I went to a movie theater was to see Sin City, you can see here exactly what I eat and think about snacks and movies.  

Soup
What year did you start using the internet?

I don't remember and really am not going to think about it...but it's been for a very, very long time.

Salad
What is your first name in Pig Latin?

OMG are you serious? This is insanely elementary.

Main Course
Name something you are picky about.

Meme questions, like the one above. Someone is always asking your name, birthday, social security number or whatever, the world is just to damn nosy. And if anyone thinks I even use my real name on the net you should be shamed.

Dessert
Fill in the blanks: I ________ yesterday and I ________ today.

I'm to tired to answer this...

Sometimes when I am down ironically there are two people whom I've never met that seem to connect with me in the most amazing way. I received and email from my dear friend Veronica she is by far one of the most amazing bloggers and people I know and if you knew her like I do you would think she's all kinds of great. She's been through (and still is going through a lot) however she stays strong through it all. At one point we lost touch and that worried me, but nevertheless we picked up right where we left off. When I emailed her today in response to her email I was astounded to find that I was giving advise and cheering myself up in the process, she supports me, understand my depression and does not judge...the same I do for her. Although we have never met she's one of those people I just instantly related to. The second person I love dearly but have never met is McCabe she too is all kinds of wonderful and she sent me an email this morning that I will respond to shortly but we too have an odd instant connection, we seem to be on the same path of understanding and fighting within ourselves, I can almost say when she writes about some things she is writing for me.  I sit there and nod my head in agreement as I read her posts.

The people closest to me are the ones I have the most difficult time with. My depression is painful and hard to explain to anyone inside how I feel. I hate fighting because it makes me self-esteem worse than it already is and I don't think people really understand how volatile people with depression are. Most people write it off as no big deal or say it's in your mind and they are wrong. It's a serious chemical imbalance that I am destined to live with. I know some of the things to help combat some of the symptoms but there is not full blown solution for this...I just wish people could understand that how they treat me has a huge impact, until then...c'est la vie.